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[Jan. 26th, 2008|06:02 pm] |
soooooo.....my car is fixed.
FINALLY.
i just need to get tabs.....and Possibly a lisence and then i will be mobile.
completely terrifying for all of you i know, but im pretty stoked.
ahhhh cars.
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[Jan. 21st, 2008|03:35 am] |
i can't think of anything sad to say.
i can't think of anything angry to say.
i can't sleep.
i can't eat.
im completely numb.
fuck this shit. |
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[Jan. 14th, 2008|05:06 pm] |
broken up.
again?
i dunno.
i definently don't like being broken up with....its a first for me.
i don't think my giant ego can handle it.
haha.
im thinking of becoming a hippy and moving to thailand.
i need some peace.
tomeditate with some buddhists.
just experience and be away from here.
this valley is killing me.
i feel strangly numb, like old kaylee.
haven't really cried or freaked out, which im assuming normal girls do when they get dumped.
haven't eaten any ice cream, or watched a girl movie.
im more upset that someone would consider breaking up with me, then the fact that i was dumped.
im such a bitch.
for now its time to go drink until my head explodes.
we can only hope. |
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[Jan. 13th, 2008|01:09 pm] |
amazing night of jello shots and old friends.
i love how even if you go to party and drink for the wrong reasons, sometimes thats just whats needed to fix everything.
and im pretty sure lifes better, i just can't really remember everything that happened last night.
i'll cross my fingers.
im officially a crazy person.
i think im gonna stop fighting it for awhile...see how that goes.
embrace the crazy. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2008|03:42 pm] |
ugg went to goldendale.
made some really bad choices.
slept in the car with sam...who blacked out.
haha.
it was an akward new years.
went to a party last night at claudes.
it was like a fucking school reunion.
sooo wierd to see everyone.
nate and conrad got in a fight with a bunch of jock kids....and drove away with my house keys in their car.
my drunken adventures just aren't as fun lately.
fucking a.
oh, back together with boy.
apperantly the only problem with our "relationship" is me being crazy and bipolar.
im thinking heavy medication is in order.
schoolyard heroes tonight.
sober because they have a shitload of security now....cause we keep coming fucked up.
haha.
hopefully this will be better then last night. |
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[Dec. 31st, 2007|12:39 pm] |
me & boy are on a "break".
my idea.
i don't know if we're getting back together.
i just don't want to deal with anything anymore.
a coma sounds superrrrr nice right now.
and im off to some town by yakima to celebrate new years with my old jake from a long time ago....new people and new places so i can forget about everyone.
get too fucked up and make some bad choices hopefully.
happy new years.
i hope 08 isn't as shitty at 07 was. |
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[Dec. 29th, 2007|12:42 pm] |
lifes way to complicated to be concious at the moment.
got way to fucked up last night.
did shit i prolly shouldn't have.
and for some reason i can't stop saying all the wrong things.
even when i know its going to hurt, and we're going to fight.
the word vomit just keeps coming because i like my world a little fucked up apperantly.
i can't wait for this period of my life to be over, but i don't know if its going uphill from here.
i don't know what i need to fix everything.
sometimes i think single again will fix me, but then i do stupid shit and realize he settles me down and makes me less fucked up.
but maybe we're all just fucked up and i should stop imagining im living in a fairy tale.
no prince charmings & happy endings here.
im done bitching....at least in not starving in africa. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2007|12:47 pm] |
sometimes i feel like i can't breath.
i don't even know what to do anymore. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2007|10:47 am] |
snowsnowsnow.
i love how it covers everything up so we can pretend the world is prettier then it actually is.
jake bought me a ring.
i had more then a small panic attack.
its a pretty ring though...very kaylee.
matches all my other hippy rings.
but still.
i don't know what a ring is posed to mean.
your an okay person?
im in love with you?
you just happen to have the proper sized finger?
dkfhkajadgh.
im worried about christmas.
i don't want big, cute mushy presents.
:/
normal people don't complain about being loved and given presents.
what the fuck. |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2007|08:28 pm] |
wow everyones depressed.
im tired.
and sick as hell.
working a double tomorrow.
and im completely content with my life.
i woke up with my boyfriend, and as gross as it sounds, i love it.
and we watched movies all day in bed.
ate some ice cream.
watched the storm.
just......content with eachother.
i hate that im officially a girl.
but im not angry about it anymore.
still get kinda wierd sometimes and wanna run away cause everythings too good....so maybe im not really fixed.
just a little better. |
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